GAIN IT BACK

Last two weeks , i lost myself~~

cant found the real reason why i really wana becum a medical student~~~lol
can i quit???
no.

i wont quit.
i wont quit.

wakakakakaka~~(too tension)

now the situation the place is not conducsinve enuf to study~

huh , at least now got the hall~~everyday go there study~.dun wan stay in house , malas to layan them~

if i really cant control myself now , i duno wat will happen in these 5 years ah~

is it i m the wrong side??? just wanna more rest...study is sucks now yet housemate keep making noise.

i ady told plz lower down their voice yet~~more noisy
feels like wana runtuhkan this house~

i cant tahan...coz later if no understanding between each other , later sure got fight.
i just dun like to fight. really suck ah~!!!!!

feels wanna slap and bite people now~~yet , still wana control my temper.
speak frankly , i m changing a lot , if me in past ,meletup ady~!!!!

if terasa tu , sedar and insaf la~
wakaakakaka , i prefer like this.

i dun care u r wat race but plz la~~budi bahasa tu jaga sikit~~

huh~i m considering enuf for u all but wat happen now????go hell la~dun wan anymore i m the one keep tolerance...


now chaged ady , start the feeling wanna study lor , this week oso dint go to church...haiz.sorry , i really have spent a lot of time to study lor~~~hopefully next week can go before i go back to johor^^

frankly speaking~~

now i m tension -ing~~

study not yet~
housemate veryy bising ah~!!!!
dah complaint pun like dat~~
tak faham langsung and not understanding ...umur dah berapa???!!!!

huh~~really angry ~~~wat the fish!!!!

still control my anger~be patient , ann, they dun wan study is their own matter , and really dint bother u r not same course with me , the thing is please understand other wan rest , does nt mean the person have follow u all do crazy things everyday~~lol

slam door till wana ruin the door , laugh like pontianak~huh~
maintain ur image a bit la~
kesian~

as a girl , sopan la sikit~!!!
....

now i m complaning on here,wakakaka~never mind la~
they oso cant deny it~they are really sucks~!!!

not hating~just fed up by their attitude~~

just pulled out my headphone , play the music as my revenge~
later midnite i just on like this ~~huhu~~

wakakakaka...(sort liao)~~

Shit~!!!!

now i m really angry~!!!!

calm down....stay peace , ann ^^

this week really sucks enuf!!!!

everythings is went wrong , nothing is pleasent~~

exam result.....relationship....frenship...haiz

everything becum complicated~~i hate these kind of things~~

wateva , just sleep la~~hopefully tomorow will becum ok^^

tiring~~

1st of all...1 word : tired.

not only body and mind.

i m the kind of lazy person...or i shud say too " wong xing wo su"?

half half kot , haha^^

i m lazy to explain things even i know it is not gud if the things keep goin then the situation becum worse.

too many unpleasent things happened within few weeks~

why people like to judge people without askin the truth 1st???

seems like i have to improve my communication skills lor~~lol

comunication is really damn important ler~~

apologise to those who been hurted by my harsh word if i told before , although i dint find any wrong wor~~
i try my best to change if i can change^^

the thing u mention "hmm"...

i really cant understand u at all. u told me like dat , wat i heard from others is different...
if really x puas hati , tell directly ok~~!!!!

although i know not everybody will tell u about ur mistakes~

i duno wat is the main problem??? even i try so hard try to understand u , the thing is wat i know from my judgement , u seems really bu shuang me~~

wateva , i dun care anymore , if really bu shuang , i prefer "pretend to" to becum ur fren , coz i dun wan do so "ming xian " dat we got problem wif each other , ok?

in TERENGGANU~!!!!

OOO~finally decided entered UDM...it is in terengganu~~i felt very nervous during my journey..coz i never step into terengganu if i m not decided to cum here study for MBBS~~
thx God , parents , family members , pastor Doding and frens who are give me a lot of moral support in making decision~~

still remember dat nite , i cried when i know the result from ipta~~
tears falls on my cheek , 1 of the reason i s happy coz i bcum one if MBBS student in malaysia^^
2nd is ....scare and anxiety ...coz lots of my frens ..they are goin to UM , UKM ,USM~~i m d only one "terbuang" in TErengganu~!!!! omg~~~

haiz~~but never mind , it wont be the reason to stopping me from learning throughout of my life~~
still remeber my lovely dean said :" being a medical student is a life long learning~doctor shud be humble and patient~"

the fears growing when i 1stly entered the main campus~~`

huh~!!!
i m really culture shock here~!!!
the food , the way people act , the messy stuffs~~fuh~have to take quite long time for me adapt it^^

during the orientation week~~i met a lot of peopl~and i join ed the qiors~~omg~1st time singing in front of bunches of people~`even i m not singing alone~~still quite anxious but fun!!!

know a lots of people~~makes lots of frens and now~~met my coursemate , lecturers and more~(etc , etc, etc)

lots of things occured during this time , the sadness , happiness and the craziest things i had done~~~in Terengganu~haha

but the thing i dunt like till now i also cant accept it is~~~~no food~!!!especially on friday~arghh~~~

Win again~~

upu released , and i got my 3rd choice---udm(terengganu) , medic , mbbs.



when i post it on my facebook wall , everybody keep asking "where is it???"



then , i m wondering why everyone dunno bout this thing?



coz it only open for matrik student for certain course. eg medic n dietician.



it only starts from this year.maybe due to this reason , so not so many ppl got same course with me.

my coursemate is my jmc ketua mentee **

my unimate is my practicummate's roomate,haha

till now , i just have these information.

goodluck for those entering university be well prepared , ready for the next chapter of our lives , cheers~!!!

no matter how far we are , our heart are always be connected to each others^^

Battle??? ok, i accept your challenge

one day, i heard (actually i was overheared,haha)

my "lovely" cousin (when saw this , you should know what i feel about it)

was called my dad.

no other things , just as usual , "asking" whether we are fine here or not.

actually pretending to be.

poor of her, always like that.

i m not too good in relaionship between far relatives , but this one gives me a big headache.

i wont ruin her name here , because this is not a gentleman....erm well , as a "gentlewoman" act ,haha.

just feel a bit , exhausted.

everytime , the same thing happen , the same mistake i had made , same situation i had to met.

but at least , i din't lose , once.

everything have to be compare , is it nice or something good for one keep comparing with others??didn't feel it is tiring??

haiz, lazy to explain to those fools.

they don't know at all , the others was lazy to be comparing like this.

but,i wont give up any chance to beat you.

challenge...it was started since small.

it's was ok for me at that time , but now , i m lazy to handle this kind of things.

i m happy and glad there is challenge for me so that i can keep improving myself , but for you, just keep pursuing my shadow, din't you feel tired at all??

pity.